Mazel Tov!

So, dear readers, I attended the Jewish synagogue Friday night and I have to say this was the most out of my element experience I have had thus far and I absolutely loved it! First and foremost I LOVED the music! It was wonderful, very catchy, I wanted to dance! And at some point I think I may have done just that!

The temple was huge, and of course the abscence of crosses was a bit strange. The star of David was of course, quite prevalent. An extremely nice older man sat next to me, I explained my project to him and he jumped right in, filling me in on all things Jewish and answered all my questions! The prayer book was interesting, as it opened from back to front. Most of the prayers and songs were in Hebrew but the translations were right there in the book. They had a woman rabbi, which I had not been aware that women could be or were rabbis, but yes, they are. I really enjoyed the verbatim that she had with the congregation. During parts of the service you are asked quesitons and everyone gives his or her opinion. She brought up a story about Noah and Abraham, and we were asked which one we identified with. You then turned to the person/s next to you to discuss this and then shared your answers out loud with the rabbi. I really enjoyed this sort of participation. This is something I am not in the Christian churches I have attended, in the bible classes yes, but not in church. Afterward I was invited downstairs where we had food and a toast. I spoke briefly with the rabbi who was very welcoming and invited me to attend the welcome to judaism classes that start next month. I am seriously considering going. I may go to temple again, just to go. I do love Jesus though....

Week Nine and Ten (maybe 11) I'm Still Here and Hitting the Reset Button

Well I finally made it safe and sound to Asheville, NC. I failed to realize what a monumental task moving three cats and two kids halfway across the US would be and I have been beyond overwhelmed. I still have a ton of unpacking to do and I'm searching relentlessly for daycare for my three year old. However, I love doing this blog, have met some amazing people and I cant wait to get back to my quest for God.

As I mentioned, my move was a bigger task than presumed so I never got around to getting in touch with anyone at the Scientology Center in Dallas. There, to my knowledge, isn't a Scientology Center in Asheville, so I am putting them aside (as I did the Lutherans) and will be doing them a bit later.

Sunday I attended a Jewish Festival here in Asheville. I spoke to one of the women at the festival, told her about about my blog and was promptly invited to attend the synagogue Friday evening! I am so excited! I have wanted to go to a synagogue for a very long time and now I will get my chance! I have so much I want to learn about the Jewish faith! Can't wait!

So its Jewish week! So glad to be back!

An Open Letter to God

Dear God,

If I ever needed you, I need you now. I need to know that you are here with me and that I am making the right decisions. I am exhausted, I have no one in my life that I can count on, if its true that you are here I need you now. Please God, help me. I can no longer continue to pay for mistakes I made in my past. I can not go through life being a tortured soul. If there is something I need to be doing to make things right for myself and my children, please, show me the way. I need to be forgiven and I need to know you are here for me. I need to be forgiven. I need to be forgiven. I NEED to be forgiven.